Below are the 3 most recent journal entries recorded in lizandkeith's LiveJournal:

Monday, June 8th, 2009
10:25 am	Friends Cut (Public Post, Comments Screened) I’ve thought long and hard about everything going on and I’ve decided to do a friends cut from my journal. In the 3 years or so I’ve been on LJ I’ve only done one other cut and have been thinking about doing one for a while. I will admit, a large part of this is spurred by the recent drama. There are many on my FL that I hardly even know- from not posting in their own journals and/or not replying in mine. I can relate firsthand how difficult it can be to keep up, but I don’t think a post once or twice a year is requiring too much. Under normal circumstances, I’d let it slide. But going back to recent events, I see I’m leaving a gaping hole in my journal that leaves my family & I susceptible to people I barely know. I can’t have that.   Unfortunately, I’m also cutting a handful of people I have a long history with- this has caused me great heartache this weekend and I’ve thought long and hard if recent circumstances have any affect on me. I’ve arrived at the conclusion that even if I take your word that these acts were not committed against me, a trust has been breached. My journal is supposed to be a place where I can share both the good and the bad with women whom I trust will give me their honest point of view (be it what it may) and keep what I post in my journal private. I feel like our relationship would never be the same and doubt would always be holding me back from being completely honest in my journal. Or as one poster put it “there is nothing to snark about” when it comes to me. I know it was meant as a compliment of sorts, but what if suddenly I find my life turned upside down and in a moment of desperation I need to turn to other women, other mothers, for support? It was only 4 years ago I suffered from PSD. Or 3 years ago when Keith and I had marital problems and even though things are wonderful now I’ve learned life isn’t always roses and rainbows. I need to be able to post in my own journal without judgment or fear that suddenly I’m snark-worthy and my most private of thoughts are being carried off and shared with others.   Furthermore, friends that I care deeply for have been treated in a disgusting and offensive way. My journal is a place where not only I am welcome to post freely, but my fellow friends as well. I always invite considerate debate and diverse points of view- I welcome it in fact. It’s one of the reasons I love these boards. So many women here have helped shape me over the years, often introducing me to new ideas or changing my point of view on things I would not have considered otherwise. What I do not condone is anyone’s journal entries being copied and taken elsewhere to be dissected, mocked, or misused. I refuse to tolerate it. I’ve tried for sometime to maintain neutrality and not allow differences between my friends dictate my relationships but I’m seeing & hearing some things that I cannot turn a blind eye to.   As another one of you explained why the site was so private: “it was a place that we posted the most intimate details of our life.” I don’t fault you for that- everyone deserves a little anonymity here and there. I find it ironic though that the group only honored their own privacy and had no regards for what people posted in their own journals. A public message board is one thing- a friends-only journal is a completely different ballpark. Even if you were not directly involved, I can’t see how you could sit back and allow something like that to go on without speaking up. If the reverse was happening, I’d do the same for you. Really.   I *hate* doing this. I’ve known some of you for over 5 years. It may sound silly to some, but I’ve literally lost sleep over this decision. For you, I wish you all the best in life and I’m sorry it had to come to this. I hope you can continue to be a part of my life on CC, but will also understand if this ends our friendship here and now. As mothers and wives, I’m sure you understand my first loyalty is to my family and I have to look out for their safety and wellbeing first and foremost. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 12th, 2008
11:25 am	I've been such a terrible journal buddy. I've been trying to read along, but with SIL in town, I'm finding it difficult to even do that. She's heading out of town for a side trip for a day, so hopefully I'll be able to catch up a little bit. Just wanted to post a quick update...Megan is 1 month old today!! I can't believe it. I've been taking some pictures and just need to get a few minutes to upload them. She's doing really well. She's really such an easy baby. She's still eating every 2-3 hours, but has been doing a 3.5 - 4 hour stretch at night. Night time is also her witching hour. She likes to psych us out by falling asleep around 8:30 pm, but as soon as we lay her down, she pops right back up and is awake until 1:00 am or so, fussing and nursing non stop.  Keith's been a great help. He'll get up after my last night feeding and take over. This morning he was up and ready to take over at 4:15 am, even though he has work. He's so good to me. I know all my posts have been about boobs and breastmilk, but that is pretty much my life right now. oh, lets not forget poop and laundry, too. Anyway, some things I wanted to update on: Good news about my stash...on the advice of someone on the BFing thread, I decided to email Dr. Jack Newman, the BF guru. He said Breastmilk conatins antibodies that keep yeast in a non-pathogenic state and that my stash is SAFE! Good thing too as Keith and I took inventory Sunday and I have over 700 ounces. Yeah, you read that right. Thrush is still here. It's getting better though. MW put me on Grapefruit seed extract on top of the Diflucan and it seems to be helping. My ointment should be arriving today which I'm really excited about. Seriously, you'd think it were Christmas morning. I'm just ready to get this crap over with. Boob Plagues continue...I had a plugged duct the other day. I seriously felt like someone had punched me in my boob. And my pumping output was cut in half. After lots of massaging though, it seems to be on the mend. Never a dull moment. We had such a good time at the aquarium the other day. took lots of pics. caroline was really excited, but ended up having a meltdown by the end of the day (hungry, overtired, etc.). She liked it though and has been asking to go back. Thank goodness we got the season passes. GTG pick up C from MMO. Hope everyone is well! (34 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 16th, 2006
8:18 am	The other night while I was cooking dinner I walked in to finding her doing this: She's so naughty!! (28 Comments |Comment on this)